I'm writing this at a somewhat better time tonight! I think it would be a good idea to start doing these early, like I tried to with my videos. But I tend to get caught up in other stuff, and forget about this until I start winding down.
I miss making videos... I've thought about picking the channel back up, but I feel like I've gone too far. And besides, my desire to makes videos again doesn't change the fact that Google simply can't be trusted with my videos, at least not for now. If they would only get us opt out..
I've thought about returning and simply obscuring my face, maybe even my voice. It's something I'm looking into. I like the idea of being a more anonymous creator, but at the same time I really like to talk, lol. I like this website, but I've recently realized it simply can't be what I need it to be. The platform I'm hosting this on, Neocities, works really well for simplistic, free web hosting. But I'm looking into something more serious, that way I can really give Wellwishing my all.
The only issue is, that costs money. I can afford it, but that means I will have to really commit to this. And without the use of social media platforms like Youtube or Instagram, I'm not sure if I'll be able to really see much return on that investment. My whole goal was to turn those things into some sort of small income. Do I make consessions? Do I give in and just let those platforms consume me? It's so hard.
It's a sucky place to be in
I really wish I could just protect my identity and stil get myself out there. But I just can't get over it. It's not even the creative aspect, I just really struggle with the idea that I'm giving a multibillion dollar company permission to do fuck all with my likeness, my voice.
But maybe I'm making my own situation worse? Maybe I should just accept that this is just how things are in the AI age. Maybe I'm even limiting my own reach by not being on those platforms?
So anyway, that's what's going on in my world. It seems like I've maybe talked myself back into Youtube. Maybe I acted too rash. But can you blame me? What they're doing in unacceptable, but it's unfortunately not something anyone currently in power would do much against. EU big tech regulations, please save us!
Until next time,